I feel as though Williams is trying to expose her refusal of her mother’s cancer through the California gulls. She starts out saying that she watches the gulls progress through adolescence and then mature to fly away. Then on page 78, she talks about her denial. She says that, “I have refused to believe that my mother will die. And by denying her cancer, even her death, I deny her life.” I believe that when she was talking about the gulls maturing, I think she was referring to the cancer progressing.