during this meditation, I couldn’t help but to start thinking about my narrative of my until. It made it hard to be calm and happy, even though he’s been gone for over a year now. I felt he was with me when I was meditating though. A lot of this meditating and trying to connect with your inner self is hard for me. I’m not an open person and don’t usually try to find inner for to resolve problems. That makes it hard to focus, when your whole life you’ve just let problems resolve them self.